「 NEW PLAN 」

I've noticed that i start being here closer to autumn every year. But be sure i thinking about it every time but both have no time and having a little bit nothing happening in my life. But about this you can check out in my new post that i'll make may be today's evening or tomorrow. 

I have a little tradition of making a plan for a year. Little things that i need to do in this time. But since my life is a little piece of ... you know... and routine i didn't do it in a NY. And it will be a little plan with huge ambitions. So i do it now with a period till the next Aug.

End with my current job
Do min 10-20 projects of Web-Programming
Start classes of Game Design
Draw much more to level up my skills
Start with a new company in this scope
Level up my English language knowledges
Enter the University of Languages with Japanese ^{(may be)}

I was so inspired when opened official site of Blizzard, watching 'New Game' and 'Sakurasou no Pet na Kanojo', looking through the instagram of thebentofox, tarre_, nekomatahime, chouchama, and rightmew. I'm very gratefull to all of them as they doing what they want so I really desided to escape from my routine-cage world and start my life with a clean slate.

Thank you guys from Blizzard! Thank you girls!

.: T H E  E N D :.

[ Long time no see + Mental and physical health ]

Hello everyone! 

I noticed that every year i'm forgetting about blogspot for the spring season. But it's not totally forgotten. I always thinking about writing something but i have nothing to.
Even if i wrote last and this post with emojis i had a strong feeling of emptiness.
I started to visit a Psycho because of the addiction to desapear, emptiness and a tough feeling of suicide. So i have a diagnosis as Depression on the background of autopsychical depersonalisation of the 2 and 3 types. I guess it'll sound like this in english.

Now i have a dream to quit the University. To study at classes of IT and Web Design and find a job at this sphere.
Also because of my health. With my job now i have a herniated disk. Feel like a walking dead now.
Too frustrating.

One gratefull thing is i like my photos i mad last time. 

Blooming Sakura 

 

The sport style dress i bought 

  

The others i will post a little later i guess.

.: T H E  E N D :.

「 Happy 2016 + study and work routine + photos 」

Listening Rob Zombie's songs make my mood a little bit better but...
Yesterday I had a test which i totally failed. I had F. And tomorow, the day after tomorow and the day after the day after tomorow i will have exams. And i'm not ready for it because of my job.

And this is not as bad as it is seemed. 'Cause i have been rised. Since the beginning of December i started to study of how to be a Manager at our company and how to control the work-time and workers. And with the beginning of 2016 Company made me a present - i'm at my appointment! Yaaaa-ay!~

But anyway all my doings are so bad that i even doesn't want to live. 
I'm ruining my relationships with my own hands. I'm extremely tired of breathing. I don't know what to do with self-control and my studying. I'm so fucked with some situations at work.

BUT I started thinking about entering the University somewhere in Finland. May be it's only winter and that the storm Daniella come so i'm thinking about snowy Finland nature and deers. Offtop:I have some kind of addiction to deers and whales. I'm going to the thing that I always wanted to go to Sweden and something is going wrong.
Finland is calm and beautiful country, i guess.

And also i have a bee in the bonnet to have my own apartment and make a total renovation in High-tech and minimallism styles. WANTITWANTITWANT 

I want to post some pictures of the XMas-day. 

01.12.16 10:19p.m.

A few moments later . . . 

So, as i said before here we go! 

The tastiest Christmas pie with marzipan. If you haven't tried ir yet you have to!

We watched 'Home Alone 2' on the national TV and it was only the 2nd time i've watched this. 

And if it is 2 days i'm doing this post i was passed my first exam and the second for today so i'm really good with it even if i doesn't want to study there. 

BUT it'll be the last exam tomorow of English speaking and i'm extremely nervous about it because i did nothing on prepairing time. Yeah... I didn't learnt any of active vocabulary and didn't wrote none of 16 themes. 

And i want to take a bath but have no time to. 

I realise that i have to learn it. English is the most importaint thing from those i'm studying. So it'll be better if i go to study. 

BYE!

.: T H E  E N D :.